Wednesday, March 18, 2009

lazyming ends.

Hello people, I'm back after so long without a post.
And now, I'm feeling real worried about my health.
This is why.

Stomach Cancer Risk Factors
Age (most people with stomach cancer are 72 years of age or older)
Being male
Being of Asian, Pacific Islander, Hispanic, or African-American descent
Eating a diet high in foods that are smoked, salted, or pickled
Having a Helicobacter pylori (H. pylori) infection
Smoking
Having certain health problems, such as chronic gastritis, pernicious anemia, intestinal metaplasia, familial adenomatous polyposis (FAP), or gastric polyps
Having a family history of stomach cancer.

Stomach Cancer Symptoms
Early Stages
Indigestion and stomach discomfort
A bloated feeling after eating
Mild nausea
Loss of appetite

Unfortunately, all of the above is what I'm having right now.
I have serious indigestion but not stomach discomfort.
I cldn't shit for days and when I shit its like a little after 3-4days.
And everytime I had a meal, when I stand up and walk around,
I can actually feel my stomach bloating.
I've to breathe in a little to not have that feeling,
once I breathe out and relax, its really an awful feeling.
I'm having mild nausea too. But it only happened once 2days ago.
Previous nausea experiences is due to alcohol consumption.
And I started having this loss of appetite symptom after I found out that I might have stomach cancer.
I didnt dare to eat much everyday.
Worried by the bloated feeling after eating.
I need to consult a doctor badly.

This is the first time I felt death is so near.
I've been thinking all day,
what if the doctor confirms that I have the disease?
Am I going to lie on the hospital bed for treatment and die like in few months time?
Am I going to die this early, not able to repay my parents?
I've so many things unsettled.
I don't want to die in such a way.
This is the first time I'm so afraid of death.

Might consult a doctor later.
Hopefully his answer will not be what I feared most.