tell me that its a dream .
tell me that its a prank .
accept what you cannot change.
change what you cannot accept.
i will talk to the management of ssc.
this isnt what we want.
its not just an ordinary pool hall.
i think the manager is hopeless.
someone without feelings.
someone cold blooded.
i dont want to experience it.
but i have to.
yes.
im right.
lazyming ends.
Friday, March 16, 2007
11:36 PM
a very tiring day today .
filled with all kinds of different emotions.
i had always thought the easy way out after ssc closes,
will be quitting pool.
its always easier said than done.
all 2-3 years growing up in the place.
knowing all kinds of different people.
and mostly nice people.
after 17th of March, 2007,
there will no longer be a scene of ssc,
with many people at the pool hall,
no matter playing at the 11 tables,
or waiting to get their table,
the smiles of everyone at challenger table.
all the fun we had .
everything seemed to happen in a blink.
there will no longer be another pool hall to make me feel like this.
all the nice people since day 1.
uncle william, aunty sally, uncle yeo.
david, max, botak, eileen.
dixon, mike, alex, eric, evelyn, zech, melvin.
peter, andy, elmo, weekiat, ashley.
michael, chris, louis and co.
edmund, tecky and co.
shiwei, ben, marcus, yuanfeng, jason and another guy.
george, paul, hendry, lester.
vincent, james, jacob, alan.
daxian, chris and yichong or yixiang if im not wrong.
not forgetting cheesiong, johnson, karhao, weiyee.
definitely alot alot more.
i can only think tht much at the moment.
most of them made what i am today.
there's this sour feeling inside me.
parting a place that resembles home.
parting a place that i go whenever im troubled.
ssc proved that pool halls are no baddies.
tomorrow is the last day.
i will be playing one last time at ssc.
there wont be a next time.
i wont forget anything that happened in ssc.
there wont be a day i forget this place.
no matter what happens in the future,
i still owe it to ssc.
everything that happen tomorrow will be last.
just like how ssc last in my heart.
lazyming ends.
2:24 AM
im going for mdis now .
maybe mass comm , maybe business .
probably mass comm.
im starting to dislike turning points of life.
i hate to make decisions.
ive always thought life would be better once i grow up.
it never did .
mistakes after mistakes .
how long will this go on?
lazyming ends.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
8:03 AM
lacking of sleep, suffering from insomnia .
what kind of life am i having.
a life that suck-ed terribly.
fcuk .
lazyming ends.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
6:48 PM
im like so bored and tired of my life .
life seem to be heading into the wrong direction in everything.
everything goes wrong since the day i took my results .
results of audition is going to be bad .
almost 3 months of 2007 had passed.
im still wondering what will my future be like.
and i also wonder what had i been doing for the past few months.
just fcuking let me get into nafa .
and let the 2-3 years pass like the 2-3months.
and i'll sign on .
我像个残废 , 飞不出你的世界
借不到一点安慰 , 为什么你拼命后退
退到了边界 , 结果我没了知觉
就连痛都嫌浪费 .
在爱里残废 , 非弄得伤痕累累
累到我无力再追 , 最怕你突然要挽回
回到了原点 , 原点却又像终点
然后多痛一遍 .
lazyming ends.
3:29 AM
audition suck-ed.
dont ask why dont ask what dont ask how .
zzzzz .
tiring day .
met up with kandis for dinner .
and went back to the place where we first met.
sound coooooool eh.
yeah definitely.
the way she laughs,
can catch the whole train's attention.
and she said in msn that she only wants me. LOL.
but with two added words "like real" .
im going to sleeeeeeeeeep .
lazyming ends.
Friday, March 09, 2007
6:24 AM
i still dont think i can dance that well .
zzzzzzzzz .
and i havent memorise my full script for acting.
only half of it. im better off dead.
i suppose im going to fail the audition on saturday.
unless my acting help my dancing.
i dont mean i can act very well.
i mean, my act is even better than my dancing.
you know you know .
thats how bad my dance is .
something is missing .
i'm wondering what .
is it the lack of rhythm ?
is it the lack of activeness ?
something is just missing .
lazyming ends.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
8:36 PM
what to act, what to say for speech.
im almost done with singing and dancing.
someone please give me some suggestion on what to act.
acting with focus on circumstances, character and dramatic actions.
speech with focus on understanding and expression of the piece through the use of varying volume, pitch, quality etc.
sigh .
lazyming ends.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
4:48 AM
my dance is showing no improvement.
im better off dead .
life seems so meaningless ever since ...
sigh .
i need a stable school .
i need true buddies .
i need to be rich .
i need to be hardworking .
i need ...
ive been living in disguise .
i need a break .
who can give me one .
nobody .
lazyming ends.
Monday, March 05, 2007
5:45 AM
just few days away from my audition eh.
i am not prepared at all.
and if i fail, what's gonna happen ?
so stressed lah.
im going to work very hard to perfect my dancing.
argghhhhhhhh.
i dont seem to have enough time recently.
maybe because of the audition.
ive tried to request to postpone the audition.
hopefully it turns out well.
if not, im going for it on the 10th.
i need help with my blogskin eh.
someone design a new one for me lehhhh :D
something nice and cool .
hmmmmmmmm.
whoever thats damn good in it, let me know!
luozhixiang rocks :D
lazyming ends.
Saturday, March 03, 2007
5:32 AM
SO DAMN LONG SINCE I POSTED!
i know i know. you guys must have missed me ALOT.
thanks thanks thanks!
hahahahaha.
news news newsssss.
audition for NAFA on 10th of March.
need to have a speech, sing, dance and act.
well, act alone ? headache :\
not much being decided yet tho.
only decided to sing Luo Zhi Xiang - Tao Tai Lang.
and trying to learn e dance of it.
am going to make it a combined segment :D
speech, would be something like an intro of myself.
hopefully i wont make mistakes.
needs careful planning eh. boooo.
act alone ?
im running out of ideas.
people reading this, give me some suggestions.
yes i mean suggestions, ASAP eh!
because i need to rehearse whaaaaaat.
hopefully, everything turns out WELL.
im wont regret choosing this path to NAFA.
im giving my best shot and hope that i'll get in.
i like to sing, dance and act alot what!
heheheheh :D
- three days back -
not feeling well .
ate a $5 salmon from park mall.
went home and had 39.5 fever at night.
i thought i couldn't survive at that time. Lol.
and i dont have appetite for next few days.
and my stomach goes insane .
the pain was unbearable .
well, everything's quite fine now.
but ive a phobia for SALMON already .
thats a big boooooooooo.
my left foot is in pain as well.
not knowing the reason why.
couldnt practice my dance because of this.
suck-ed eh.
hopefully it recovers asap .
ohyah . im going crazy over someone.
not a GIRL.
a GUY.
he's
LUOZHIXIANG :D
LOL!
yeah, after viewing MANY interviews,
mostly from youtube, and stuff like that,
felt that he's a great guy,
he has good personality, character.
sings and dance well.
cooooooooooool.
alright, posted alot.
next time i'll post more regularly,
so that it'll be shorter and easier to read.
i know alot of you had been awaiting for this post.
i know i knowwwwww.
all my FANS! thanks thanks. LOL!
ok shunming stop it.
ok bye.
MING -
