hmmmmmmmmmmm .
wht a boring christmas .
booooooooooooooooooo.
saw lilin's sister . dont look like her.
fwahah . but she's got alot to talk.
like karhao.
they gonna be a happy family later on.
LOL .
im broke im broke im broke .
zzzzzzzz.
byebyebye.
lazyming ends.
Thursday, December 21, 2006
11:23 PM
no excuses .
the causes of my defeat .
my mistake , my fault , my bad .
so , pardon me and allow me to pour everything out here.
ive been keeping it inside me and trying to keep my cool.
the day started with me ben yuanfeng and xueru.
we took bus 80 down to klassic(the tournament venue).
had a few games with the guys .
cant really find my accuracy .
worried, of course .
next thing i know is
im facing Kenneth Ang.
my first group match.
is it a dream come true ? or what .
i told myself, yes, ive been waiting for this moment.
i wanna thrash him, i wont lose him at least.
so it started , he won the lag, which means he gets to break first.
nice break , he cleared until the 7th ball.
if im not wrong, i potted the 7th ball and missed the 8th.
it was a giveaway game. i could've won easily.
so , 1-0 to Kenneth.
next rack, i made a mistake, he foxed 2-9.
2-0 to Kenneth. simply quick and easy.
last rack , my last hope of reviving.
yup , for once i thought im on luck.
he missed the 9 , i got a fantastic chance to make it 2-1.
yes i potted the 9.
BUT . bad control of the cue ball, cue ball potted.
end of first race to 3. Kenneth won 3-0.
frustrated. the feeling i was getting after the first match.
i couldnt find the feeling. the pocket were real small.
i tried to be calm, i told myself, just win the last 3 matches.
next, against Jeremy Tan.
first rack, i missed the 9, he potted. 1-0 to Jeremy.
next rack, i won. 1-1.
third rack, which seems to be the deciding rack.
i missed the 9, potted the cue ball.
Jeremy seems to lead 2-1 for sure.
BUT , he pushed away the 9 Ball without my consent.
after some discussions, its decided that the rack was mine.
so , i lead. 2-1.
4th rack.
my dream rack. i break-cleared .
i kept my cool, and i did it.
my confidence went up with that.
3-1. i won.
next match. me against Lionel Koh.
i watched him play against other contestants.
and i knew i cld beat him.
i felt relaxed, did my job.
3-0. i won.
deciding fixture.
Xu Shunming vs Augustine Tan.
it REALLY seems to be the deciding fixture for a moment(you'll know why later).
it was a tight contest. he was accurate, i panicked.
1-0 to Augustine.
2-0 to Augustine.
1-2 to Shunming.
2-2 to Shunming.
3-2 to .. Shunming.
yup, i thought ive qualified.
keyword , THOUGHT .
i smiled to ben/yuanfeng/xueru.
i suddenly felt so happy and relieved.
my first tournament, yes im through.
next thing i knew, the group was not decided YET .
the real deciding fixture.
Augustine Tan vs Lionel Koh.
Conclusion ?
if Augustine wins at ANY score, he qualifies and im out.
if Lionel Koh wins at ANY score, i qualify and Augustine's out.
and i knew im out at that very moment.
i really THANK everybody that tried to console me.
telling me that maybe Lionel will win Augustine.
like ive predicted, Augustine won 3-0.
im out.
i thought over and over and over and over again.
what went wrong ?
it was my first match against Kenneth Ang.
how did I miss the 8 ball , how cld i not control my cue ball ?
mistakes, mistakes.
i cant believe, the guy i hated most, had kicked me out of the tournament.
he tried to be nice with me.
but i dont know if its sarcastic, or really he's nice.
i feel , nope.
my first tournament, my first defeat.
probably my last tournament as well.
devastated .
almost broke down at ssc.
i didnt .
but i still feel pain deep down inside of me.
i need a break . i need one .
still considering giving up pool after this defeat.
probably, probably not.
depends .
thanks for ALL that tried to console me.
but im still having this sour feeling inside of me.
i cant explain, its like my near 3 years of hard work went down the drain.
let me be, let me try to overcome this two big words hanging in my heart.
"i lost"
MING -
lazyming ends.
Monday, December 18, 2006
11:50 PM
ok , story starts here .
i went to klassic with junxiong today .
main objective : support vincent .
alright , it's kinda cool there .
vincent lost the first race to 3.
and he won the other three race to 3s.
therefore , he qualified .
i was pressured after he qualified .
i wont want to lose , right ?
and after our dinner, we went back to klassic.
my friends told me that this guy , KENNETH ANG, is damn fucking pro .
alright, i concede defeat for a moment.
later on, i wanted to ask him for race to 3 friendly match.
he shook his head arrogantly .
and asked , "money ?"
To Kenneth Ang : You wanna play money with me ? You come down to SSC(funky balls/paradigm) and look for me. I'll play with you. Don't talk like you're some kinda fucking hustlers out there. Get this straight and clear, want play money ? i set place you set the time.
For what you've said, i've set my mind to beat you on Thursday, i want to and WILL beat you even if i lost to the other two contestants. My target on Thursday is NOT qualifying, its to beat you . I SINCERELY HOPE YOU WILL READ THIS MSG . (:
you made my day, Mr Kenneth Ang .
see you on Thursday, give me your best (:
- MING
lazyming ends.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
6:27 PM
im busy busy busy busy busy busy !
no time to go out or have fun at all .
what i face everyday is work work and work .
im only free on friday night/saturday.
gonna hang on even if it's exhausting me .
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz .
i really dont feel the way i once felt about you . girl its not you its me i kinda gotta figure out what i need . but we know, we gotta go our separate ways and i know its hard but i gotta do it and its killing me . pretending that we get along girl how you not dont see this . MING -